Weaning my Baby

I'm happy and sad all at the same time. It has been 2 complete days since Stella last nursed. Today at nap time she only asked about 5-6 times to nurse and then she just stopped asking and started to settle down and it only took her about 30 mins to fall asleep.
I'm so happy that I finally decided to just do it. It also helped that the first night I wasn't here. I was out for an all-nighter with some friends so that left Andrew on his own without the possibility of giving up.

I'm sad, too. My baby is no longer any hint of baby. She is a little girl now. Full of spice (and sometimes vinegar!!)


I'm glad to finally be getting my body back and to not have to share it with another person. I've been pregnant or nursing for almost 3 years. I'm glad I did it though. I don't think it's something I could ever look back on and say I wish I hadn't done it. I think if I hadn't done it I would have wished that I did. I'm also very proud of myself for pushing through the hard moments and continuing even when I wanted to quit nursing her and just give her a bottle of formula. I'm also so grateful for all my friends that lent their support without judgment or criticism. You know who you are!! Thank You!!

Tidy or Tricky

So the other morning I set up a Dora DVD in my room so Stella could watch it and I could play one on one with Hunter. She was very quiet and when the DVD was over she came out carrying her new Dora and Diego dolls and Hunter's play time with me was over.

I suspected nothing.

That night laid down with Stella as usual. I feel something weird on the sheet next to me, like it's all shredded. So I get up to turn on the light and this is what I find:


Stella just looks at me. Giving no hint that she has done it. So I ask her if she did that....... she just stands there looking at me. So I ask her where the scissors are? She hops down off the bed and opens one of my dresser drawers and pulls out a package that has been opened, cut, and sort half put back together.


These are my scrap booking scissors. (I've never used them because, well I've never scrapbooked, but I intend to one day). They have been stashed so long I forgot they were there.

So did she put them away so she wouldn't get caught OR did she put them away because she was being tidy and putting them away after use????

Hmmmm..........